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Lightbender

by lorelei k

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1.
Eidelon 05:13
The baby was born to an unknown disease The air poison and you the catalyst Don’t break my heart You’re still my Chimera! Eidelon! Phantasm! Don’t move any closer Chimera! Eidelon! You gave me a rose, I gave you my skin You laid me down all covered in crimson Chimera! Eidelon! Phantasm! Setting Sun! If I were to kneel down at your holy side, Would you give to me your tattered affection? If I were to kneel down at your holy side, Would you give to me your shattered affection? Gods misbehaving, mutual worshipping Walls sweating and yearning, mutual worshipping Gods misbehaving, mutual worshipping Walls sweating and yearning, mutual worshipping Mutual worshipping Leave my body, leave my skin Let a little light in At my vanity, I saw your reflection [x4]
2.
I found you in a dark place Someone new with a new face Staring at the ceiling, falling Light cascading from your eyes You perfumed in feeling Someone out of a painting Reminiscent of a boy child Picking daisies, light vacating for the night The moon is a swingset hanging high Pumping my legs on my little ride If I sprouted wings, would you look at me With little fear in your little eyes? A bird never perched on my shoulder but I felt a feather tickling my spine We could live in the center of a crystal! We could sleep in a glittering shrine! You and I
3.
I Watched U 04:04
i watched u descend from the sky pink and blue which am i? i watched u descend from the night midnight blue one of two i watched u jade and topaz hues naming who winter blooms i watched u adorned in lace golden wings angel face cherubs came painted on my face braided my hair gave me grace i watched u descend from the sky pink and blue which am i? Suddenly the clouds opened up, The storm was over And everything was supposed to go back to normal But I don’t think anything was ever the same after that day I think we carry a piece of it with us Change happens all the time and it won’t stop ever My mother told me that the days are long but the years are short And I find that to be true And I think I’m in love with the manic, inconsistent, unstable, sometimes dreary nature of the world that has met us right here and now It’s a world that’s ready to take me in It’ll take you in, too
4.
I’m not guilty anymore I lay down in only heels and underwear I’m all alone Whatever it takes to keep on dancing Whatever it takes to change the world Whatever whatever whatever whatever whatever I’m not guilty anymore Trickling cum on my unwashed hand Cumwashed right hand My writing and my imposter syndrome I’m closer to home lubricated alone I am a poor host Fuck! And I’m in it I’m in it I’m in it I’m in it Man begs I dig my nails further into his spine Man screams I tell him to shut up Your significant air seductive Your years are seemingly productive He holds the door open for me as I leave He wouldn’t want me to break a nail
5.
Panther 03:33
On my lighter a painterly panther’s head Lit all those scented candles beside the bed I was just trying to communicate with the dead Stuck on somebody else’s words that’d never been said Don’t leave a mess when you leave me Dark is temporary feeling If you get lost in the lighting Look for a doll to embody On the horizon the sun is brushing her hair Panther rising ochre eyes that she prepared I was just trying to communicate with the dead Letting the pen slip, those words already been read Don’t leave a mark on my body I have just enough already You are the light in me piercing Writings of loving and longing On my lighter a painterly panther’s head Lit all those scented candles beside the bed I was just trying to communicate with the dead Stuck on somebody else’s words that’d never been said
6.
Fvcked Vp 02:11
Baby you know more than anyone knows You made me into someone that I don’t know Still about you I write all my songs And still I miss you after seven months It’s fucked up, this love stuff It’s fucked up, I’ve had enough It’s fucked up, this love stuff, It’s fucked up, I’ve had enough Don’t know who he was, but he looked like some fun He said who are you I said I’m anyone He had his hand all on my arm He said let’s run, he said let’s go I’ve had enough, I’ve had enough Of the love stuff, can we just fuck Just fuck It’s fucked up, I’ve had enough I’ve had enough of the love stuff I’ve had enough can we just fuck I’ve had enough it’s fucked up I’ve had enough of Great Love
7.
Body 03:43
I don’t wanna be the one To leave you like that I don’t wanna be unsure Anymore I don’t wanna be the one To leave you like that I don’t wanna be unsure Anymore Show me your body And I’ll show you mine I don’t wanna be the one Anymore What if I cut off my own hands? What if I cut off my own hands? What if I cut off my own hands, Would it make a difference? What if I cut off my own hands, Would it make a difference? What if I cut off my own hands, Would it make a difference? What if I cut off my own hands, Would it make a difference?
8.
I saw you Standing in the corner of the room I saw you Emerald green baby pink Crystal clear I saw you The bedroom And if I die before I wake Ann, come back, it’s not too late And if your soul’s the lord’s to take I’ll pray and I’ll pray and I’ll pray and I’ll pray Do you see me standing there My heart in my hands crystal clear My brother let me scream into his chest He told me it’s okay and So I pray and I pray and I pray and I pray
9.
Sipping on angel’s tears I feel light as the air I can’t seem to find Shadows in the mirror I know I’ll never make it out of this one I know I’ll never make it out of this one I know I’ll never make it out of this one Obsidian Pendulum resting in my little palm Guiding me home Obsidian Pendulum resting in my little palm I know I’ll never make it out of this one I know I’ll never make it out of this one I know I’ll never make it out of this one Not alive not tonight
10.
Radiating 03:35
Wandering poet Dancing with the leaves The wind started singing I’m kicking my canteen It’s okay to think what you wanna think It’s okay to seek beauty in small things But for a moment there I left my body Arisen from My chest’s cavity In the secret garden I’m dancing with the trees Our long limbs flailing Exhaling open see Doing what you can amounts to something And if not now, when? You are radiating But I’m still a child, prisms in the wild Yeah I’m still a child, prisms in the wild Tell me what do you think it means We leave a mess behind Tell me what do you think it means We lose from time to time Tell me what do you think it means We rush to lose our minds Tell me what do you think it means We lose from time to time
11.
Blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light When I was a girl I learned the power to escape my body Disappear into a swirl between the eyes My body lay wrapped in a field warm Leave my body here tucked into the world Leave the hell on earth Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light Embalmer you can be adjacent to my little pulsing muse Got a bad desire I can take you higher Disappear into a swirl between the eyes My body lay wrapped in a field warm Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light Woman with a super power Embalmer with a bad desire I can take you higher Blue light blue light blue light It’s not you it’s just this notion that when two bodies touch I gotta give it up Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light The coolness of a body lay on the metal Makes his skin prick a little Got a bad desire I can take you higher Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light Blue light blue light blue light blue light blue light
12.
I was the Eve last night Pure thing banshee screams I own conviction Then came the urge to ditch this shit Refuse to return The vision of bathing in the broad light seems so enticing Caught up in a tangle with my purity I want to hold the smallest child And tell it everything will be alright I want to hold the smallest child And tell it everything will be alright I want to open the screen door to the ethers Shed all of my ochre crimson and burnt umbers Shed all of my ochre crimson and burnt umbers I want to open the screen door to the ethers I love you I love you I love you all the time I love you I love you I love you most of the time I love you I love you I love you all the time I love you I love you I love you most of the time
13.
You You You 03:17
I don’t know what to expect from you You you you It’s just you standing under the bar lights That certain crystal haze come midnight You look just like a God or an assassin I always gave you too much power I don’t know what to expect from you You you you Remember when you gave me a buzzcut in your kitchen? I said I felt naked and kinda weird You and me in our sweaty Texas tans Laughing like idiots, smoking like chimneys I don’t know what to expect from you You you you I don’t know what to expect from you You you you
14.
New Years 03:23
To the children on my chest I’m sorry for the mess we left And the ghosts we have upset Stripped the glory left bereft Soften the lines that frame me Cover the canvas and repaint me Somehow I could never see me Suffocating by tight gripping If we tore the light like fabric once before we can make it happen that’s for sure I bent the stream into the shore we’re deserving of so much more and that’s for sure So be a body by me I can hold onto too tightly Somehow I could never see me Suffocating by tight gripping I feel rumbling tumbling tingling piercing my ribcage Children on my chest I’m sorry for the mess we left And the ghosts we have upset Cut me, cut me open It’s all that I need Rip me open New Year’s Eve Cut me open It’s all that I need Rip me open New Year’s Eve
15.
Never wore a white dress Never felt like baby blue But if purity’s a place, Then that’s where I wanna take you When’s the last time you rest your head in untamed grass Or spotted a cardinal on a dewy sunny Sunday morning Hummingbirds are angels of the earth Ladybugs carry special little meanings on their little spotted backs Never wore a white dress Never felt like baby blue If purity chisels at this pace In time I’ll be stained too Akin to pages left in light Sepia tones denote the wise Of pride and souls with holes Unholy souls as you’d suppose Where did you find this binary of chaste and brine Go abject these lies like the foul you despise Lovers’ letters, messages still left intact warm weather always promises that it’ll be right back I felt a cool warm rushing all over my flesh Water sparkles like an ethereal fabric The light is what we like whether we choose to like that fact Warm weather always promises that it’ll be right back Never wore a white dress never felt like baby blue If god’s of punishment I’ve known it’s all the same to you The growth that I have shown from mottled earth Is growth that I have known to have rightly earned So bath your white dress in dyes of brown and gold Its clarity once told less now it has much to behold Never wore a white dress Never felt like baby blue But if purity’s a place Then that’s where I wanna take you

about

tourmaline (crimson)
the body, severance, fear, war

We begin in “Eidelon” where the Lightbender confronts a faceless demon. Primal rhythms trip around the warring gods. Through ecstatic layers of breath and crash and force of guitar, the truth of the fight, a long fight, emerges. She will unseat the imposter. The pure one lays a blunt defeat. Lightbender prevails, Lightbender begins.

With the demon’s exit the Lightbender has been given sight. She spills into her own body and opens her eyes. What can she be to this broken world she sees, and to herself, now clear in a reflection? The Lightbender serves this vision by cloaking herself in finery. She makes what she wants to see, and with the knowledge of a supreme watcher, she rises. This is the prayer of “I Love U:” to see the ruin from above and still remain. Once born, now to aid the birth of others.

I want to hold the smallest child / and tell it everything will be alright

With each birth the Lightbender remembers. [Enter First Love.] “You You You” descends from the widest view into a kitchen in a house on Scripture Street, in Denton, in Texas, where two loves take razors to their hair, burning the chrysalis.

The Lightbender watches the past.

She sees her hands the way she saw them then, too large and too strong, in “Body.” The crimson of the old bruise pulses. She knows her own hands better now. The Lightbender travels on alone.

obsidian
separation, lust, acceptance

Darkness crowds the new road as it bends. Echoes of old foes press the Lightbender. “New Years” is the forthright treatise of a guilty survivor. Condescendence and self-doubt stings in “Significant Air.” “Obsidian Pendulum” is the guard against psychic attack. The Lightbender has the protection of night sight. New growth takes cover in the blackness around her. As in “Panther”: Dark is temporary feeling.


jade
nature, the sensory world, the truest world

Dawn rises in a garden once secret to the Lightbender. She shows others where it is now with the rhapsodic souvenir “Radiating,” and it becomes more real to her with each traveler who walks through it. “I Watched U” is a testament to the purpose of this journey. It is the poem of an opening heart.

moonstone (baby blue) (clarity, sadness, wisdom, pure light)

With this compounding joy, the Lightbender blooms into euphoria. Where before the coping mechanism of escape gives “Selena In Ecstasy” a way to leave her body when in pain and entwined with another, the departing angel in “Perfumed In Feeling” takes The Lightbender to visions of tearful beauty as she heals, safe all the while.

“Sentimental Interest” calls in a brother as witness for the crux of the journey. He knows: the Lightbender began in purity and purity itself has been her journey. A chorus of hummingbirds, ladybugs, souls holy and unholy, join in the afterglow of “White Dress.” In opening herself to the world The Lightbender becomes accountable to self-love. At the end is a mirror, at the end is light.

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released October 25, 2019

performed, written and produced by Lorelei K
produced, recorded, mixed, and mastered with Michael Briggs at Civil Audio
featuring
Sarah Ruth - voice and dulcimer
Ava W Boehme - voice
Leoncarlo - violin
Garrett Wingfield - saxophone
Parky Lawson - guitar
Pinson - featured track artist

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Lorelei K is an artist, musician and poet from Dallas, Texas, known for composing and performing avant-pop with arresting vocals.

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